I love life lessons.
Even the ones that slap you in the face at the worst times I've often been very grateful for later in my life.
I'm exactly that at this point in my life. I'm grateful. I'm lucky and grateful and proud because I have something that very few people in this world actually know how to use- I identify a lesson when i see one- and I'm aware of the truth.
Do you know how some people will tell you to trust your instinct and you nod in agreement but never actually do anything about it? I promise you, If we all trusted our instincts, we would all be so much happier. If we all belived in Truth we would be so much more achieveing. if we all stopped trying to please others we would live a life so fullfilling and so carefree.
I learnt to invest my time only in the people that deserve it, and the things i've prioritized and i'm passionate about. After being repeatedly told by my roommate/bestfriend Gerard, I finally learnt to practise this. Gut instinct first will tell you whether or not this person will mean much, and to be fair, there are some people that are so deceiving that they can fool the pureness of our instincts. It's okay. Once they've been unveiled, drop them. You will notice that they have only been unnecessary stress. Have acquaintances, like all people and spread joy, but know who would take a bullet for you and who you would take a bullet for, and those are the people you need to be around. good, genuine people will last you a life time. Good genuine people are the people you should love and call friends. they're a small circle that are the family who your not blood related to.
Even the ones that slap you in the face at the worst times I've often been very grateful for later in my life.
I'm exactly that at this point in my life. I'm grateful. I'm lucky and grateful and proud because I have something that very few people in this world actually know how to use- I identify a lesson when i see one- and I'm aware of the truth.
Do you know how some people will tell you to trust your instinct and you nod in agreement but never actually do anything about it? I promise you, If we all trusted our instincts, we would all be so much happier. If we all belived in Truth we would be so much more achieveing. if we all stopped trying to please others we would live a life so fullfilling and so carefree.
I learnt to invest my time only in the people that deserve it, and the things i've prioritized and i'm passionate about. After being repeatedly told by my roommate/bestfriend Gerard, I finally learnt to practise this. Gut instinct first will tell you whether or not this person will mean much, and to be fair, there are some people that are so deceiving that they can fool the pureness of our instincts. It's okay. Once they've been unveiled, drop them. You will notice that they have only been unnecessary stress. Have acquaintances, like all people and spread joy, but know who would take a bullet for you and who you would take a bullet for, and those are the people you need to be around. good, genuine people will last you a life time. Good genuine people are the people you should love and call friends. they're a small circle that are the family who your not blood related to.
I wasted a lot of time with alot of people that did not deserve an ounce of what I gave. I see this now. So for every wasted minute that helped me learn this, I am grateful, but for every Dumbass I gave an ego boost to because i made them feel worthwhile by spending time with them, I apologize-because You will always be the shit that you are, and I'm sorry for wasting my time where it was not due. This goes back to all my past wasted years, especially highschool and stemming from that, two years worth of wasted time and spilt emotions, None of which I want to take back the lessons I learnt, but kind of wished I spent them doing something more worthwhile..like playing a sport.
I went for an indoor cycling class at fitness first in southport on saturday morning, it was the most invigorating experience. I worked up a sweat and felt great after it. I realized excercise was indeed a stress relief. I learnt, as I spun to the loud music and voice of the instructor, that we must love the body we were given. We must love it, cherish and respect it, look after it and not hurt it. We have the choice. And i promised myself to make the right choices from now on....
Again, I have to refer to my roomamte for this, but last night, after we went on a run along the beach and kicked a football around -(the after effects of which I am now suffering-My limbs are in pure stiffening agony!)- I'm not sure why we started talking about this. But his analogy was "Love is like butter, the more you spread it, the thinner it gets"- those were exactly his words and suddenly it all hit me. Spreading the love meant spreading the joy, the glow, the happiness. But love, is a very delicate word. And if its used wisely, it'll cherish its meaning. If I throw a tantrum everyday, no one will ever take my anger seriously. Similarly is the sincerity of this word.
Again, I have to refer to my roomamte for this, but last night, after we went on a run along the beach and kicked a football around -(the after effects of which I am now suffering-My limbs are in pure stiffening agony!)- I'm not sure why we started talking about this. But his analogy was "Love is like butter, the more you spread it, the thinner it gets"- those were exactly his words and suddenly it all hit me. Spreading the love meant spreading the joy, the glow, the happiness. But love, is a very delicate word. And if its used wisely, it'll cherish its meaning. If I throw a tantrum everyday, no one will ever take my anger seriously. Similarly is the sincerity of this word.
I thought about the people I do truly love and wondered what it is that makes them different. I realized that when I said I loved them, something inside of me moved. I felt the meaning of this word in my soul. That is when its real. I learnt my lesson. i will never throw that word around ever again, there are many people I care about, and absoloutely adore-but I love very few. And that I'm grateful to have realised. But because i'm so expressive, Its sometimes hard to bite my tongue with this word, but i'll learn to. just like I learnt this.
And because of those lessons, I can very easily say, I love my life. I love my freedom. I love my independance. I love coffee and sunny mornings and barbeques in the park. I love energy and laughter and summer dresses and kind smiles. I love positivity and sincerity and Truth.
I love it all. And i feel it resound itself in me as I type this. That is real love.
Having said that I just want to say I love you Rama, I love you Zoll.
I love you Gerard.
I love You Mom, Dad, sisters and brother.
That word has never felt so right before!
Rama, I hope you know you are the longest standing best friend I've had and I would take a bullet for you anyday and be happy in doing so.
Zoll, The same goes for you. You are the older brother God forgot to give me,I love you and I'd take a bullet for you anyday and be happy in doing so.
Gerard, I hope you know you mean the universe to me. I'd take a bullet for you anyday and be happy doing so.
Mom, I would die in a heartbeat for you,you are my world.
Dad, my sisters and my little brother-I wouldn't have it any other way. i'd take a bullet for you anyday and be happy doing so.
xox
